In January I decided I needed a word for my year. Something to motivate me and keep me focused. The word I chose was...Forward.
Now, I feel like everything is on hold until I get my MRI next week. To catch you up, my right knee started really bothering me in February. I went to the doctor a few weeks later. I did eight weeks of PT that didn't help much. I went back to the doctor and scheduled an MRI. The appointment was scheduled three weeks out from when I made it. So, I've spent a lot of time dealing with my knee and figuring out what I can and can't do. A lot of time waiting.
Some days are better than others. There are times when it's painful, but doesn't seem to limit my walking or have a nagging sense of pain all the time. Then, there are other days when it hurts so much I don't feel like I can even walk much. I definitely can't run or ride my bike. I can swim, but I'm waiting to officially join the gym until after we get back from Annual Conference on June 11. All this means I haven't been moving much and that is frustrating - although, admittedly, somewhat self-imposed.
There are a lot of things I want to do - the WIN for KC triathlon at the end of June, the July 4th four-miler, the KC Zoo Run in September, possibly a mission trip in August. However, I feel like I can't really make any solid plans until I know the results from the MRI and what the treatment plan will be.
So, it seems like "Forward" isn't really happening right now. I keep reminding myself that Forward doesn't have to just be physical. There are other things I want to do - start writing my book, Bible journaling, more focused and regular meditation, lose weight. I can't let my physical mentality eat away at the rest of what I want to do with the year.
Onward and Upward!
